Bruise but not broken

I woke up this morning, I checked my phone. Nothing. Usually before off to bed one of my friend will call me, and cheer me up.. So that I can sleep perfectly.. But last night he didnt call. I feel so damn lonely and empty. Plus its me and him 6th month anniversary. I feel that inside. I dunno whatelse to do, I read, listening to radio, yet still I cant stop thinking bout him. Lotsa things trembling in my mind.. I try to stay still.. and at the I fall asleep. This morning all the way to Damansara, all I been thinking of him.. I even almost bumped into a lorry.. Gosh! I dont know how long I've been driving.. all I know I end up at opposite of Phileo Damansara where there used got hectic trafic jammed.. :) I arrived at the office at 8.30am. And there's only Serena at the office. And she ask me whether I'm okay or not. Then I replied 'I think so' then she smile. I sit down and all I've been thinking is him and giving myself a talk to be strong and move on. Without realizing my tears drops. I'm not crying, just that the sadness inside my heart truly can shown this obvious?? Oh NO! what ashamed. I wipe off my tears and prentending I'm ok. The more I tried to hold it, the worst its getting. I run to the ladies and I begin to cry.. again and again.. I let myself all out and try to think straight and yet my tears is heavy as a rain in November. I tried to stop, but half of me said just let go all the pain inside. Then I realized that I cannot work like this, I have to be strong and I have to deal with it. I washed my face and put a smile then I walk off from the ladies and back at my desk. As I walk in, Mr.Tan and Eira was there standing beside me, Eira holding my hand and said 'Girl, U have to know how to faced it. I never saw you like this before.' I feel so ashamed and touch too.. But I keep on holding to my emotion so that I will not crying AGAIN!.. Then, here I am updating every single thing that happen to me. So that I didnt keep it to myself or else it will getting so damn hurt.