calculus and chemistry. Thats what we are.

As you know, I've been reading lotsa book nowadys just for my 'NOT GOING TO DO MEDIC SCHOOL'.. I read tons of books that related to my course and I end up stuck in Malaysia. I'm kinda depressed cos not going there. I know by not gonna there I'll be unhappye cos there's nothing left for me here. It really reminds me how I fix myself back then by going somewhere far from people, people who dont know me at all.. and it really works! Meaning like start all over again, with new friends and enviroment. Its hard to deal when the person that hurting you is reachable, and yet you can still anytime bumped into him/her.. The more I think, the more I get upset. And my weakness part is, im so easy to FORGIVE & FORGET! Gosh.. I have no idea why cant I be a little bit cruel inside?? When I think back of him, I dont know why we still going strong, I mean the feeling is there but only thing is, we always got some issue, maybe its because we're in process of knowing each other?? Is that it?? Well.. I dunno. Like my friends always said try to let go and forgive yourself.. Well, maybe its not the time yet. I dont know.
But, in the other hand we surely a lovey dovey couple. Maybe both of us need to fix ourself first and try to understand each other.. Like people always said true love never runs smooth.. Correct?? I hope so.. I dunno.. But yeah, I do hope he's my true love.

Today is our anniversary, and I'm hoping there's a miracle. Not only in myside but also at his side. :) What I can conclude from our situation is.. sin^2 theta and cos^2 computed each other perfectly as reduction and oxidation do. Hahaha.. In English, no matter how bad the situation is, me and him will always match each other perfectly cos we are meant to be one. Happy Anniversary to whom may it concern. Let work this thing out PROPERLY & TOGETHER!