I'm not okay. But I promise, I will be okay.

I dunno what happen to me for the past few days, I keep on crying like a little baby begging for a milk. I become monster at my work place. My emotion is not stable and I didnt even had my break fast properly. Gosh, who am I? And what happen to me? Shouldnt I be the strongest person in my family? Currently, NO!
Maybe people seeing me laughing and giggling.. But deep inside my heart I was crying like hell. Yesterday is the most shitty day ever.. I go off to work, I set up my mind to complete all the outstanding works before I'm off.. Truly, there's a tons of work need to be complete. But it turns out that I had this unstable emotions kinda thinggy.. I started to become very-very fussy in my worksheet, I feel kinda guilty of getting mad at my assistant and collegues.. I was so angry and at the end I cannot hold my emotion and I started to cry. Cry like I never cried before. And all my collegues come towards me and started to calm me down. I hug Ms.Yap and said 'I cannot do this' .. Yeah, there's a drama!! Haha.. I feel kinda ashamed but I'm lucky to know that my collegues is really supportive during my good and bad times including Mr.Tan!! They all stop their own work and brought me to meeting room and trying very-very hard to put me together again.. I'm kinda touch for their actions. And for the 1st time I hear Mr.Tan giving me advice in LOVE matter! My boss actually giving me tips for my love life?? How cool is that?? Haha.. Then, after few hours of chatting, they all started to work back. :) But for me, this heartacne really give me a remarkable impact to my life.. To be honest, I dont know how to get back on my feet. But I'm trying very hard to get up and shows the world that I manage to overcome my weakness in every single medium. I do confess that I'm not okay.  Yes, I cried, I'm feeling down, etc.. But I promise I will be okay just matter of time. Insyallah..